Find My Happy

I need to find my own happiness. I’ve realized that I tend to suck the happiness out of others because of how much I lack it, but I don’t want to do that. It’s not my intention. I want to find my own. And as much as I wish that others would care enough to help me with that, I have come to the realization that I have to find it on my own. No one else can get me there. Though it might be an uphill battle, I have to do it. I don’t expect anyone else to do it for me.

Most of my emotional support comes from music. So I’m going to focus on that. And my wonderful new-found friends.

Thank god for new friends.

I will get better. I won’t drag anyone down. I refuse to ruin anyone else’s life because of my own down fall. I want to find that bubbly person I used to be, no matter how much crap I have to dig through to find her again. Even if I have to do it completely alone.

I AM happy….. or at least, I was at one time. I should be able to get back there again.

Never mind my scars…. Mental, emotional, or physical. I shall over-come. That’s why I moved here, that’s what I am determined to do.

CLOSING THOUGHT: Boston is beautiful. Nothing can prove me wrong!