Somone Wrote A Song About My Life

Oh dear you look so lost
Eyes are red and tears are shed
This world you must have crossed
She said...

"You don't know me, you don't even care
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains"

She's open yet concealed
Carry all her thoughts
Across an open field
When the flowers gaze at you
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you

You said...
"You don't know me, you don't even care
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains"

She said...
"I think I'll go to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name
I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind
I think I need a sunrise
I hear it's nice in the summer
Boston... where no one knows my name"

So, I just found out that my visit to West Point was a waste. *sigh* You know, it didn’t need to work out. That’s not what I’m upset about. Not all people are meant for others and I’m ok with that. What hurts is that he didn’t tell me. He could have just said, “I don’t think this is going to work.” Instead he lead me on while he was seeing someone else. I guess that means that he didn’t even consider me a good enough friend to respect me enough to let me know.

And people wonder why I have a hard time trusting guys. They tell me that I need to let them into my heart. But every guy that I have been in a relationship with, or tried to start a relationship with have cheated on me. So, forgive me if I happen to be a bit protective of my heart. If you only knew how much I really wish there were a guy that I could give my heart to. My heart is far to big to keep to myself.

It may sound stupid, but I want to be able to change all my online status things. I want to be able to proudly state that I am in a relationship. A good, strong, loving, happy relationship. I remember how good it felt to have to tell guys, "Sorry, I'm taken." It meant that I had someone who wanted me in their life and I wanted them in mine.

I don't want a boyfriend for the sake of having a boyfriend. I want a best friend. I want to find someone to talk to and share with and be there for each other. I want a companion. God said, "It is not good that man should be alone." I need someone too. I've been hurt and lonely for too long.